Sunday, March 28, 2010

Recurring Dreams

I'm pretty certain I never want to live in Australia again but in between bouts of insomnia are persistent dreams of familiar beaches, surfing and warmth hitting on my body. The frequency of the dreams is getting a little disturbing now... They started roughly six months ago in October with one dream a month, then by January they increased to about two a month and by february they occurred about once a week. Now, this week I have already had three, last night was the most recent.

The scenes and people change but they always take place by Sydney beaches, there is always sparkling clear blue water and sounds of people enjoying themselves, there is always sun, lots and lots of sun, and I'm always blissfully happy. Occasionally, they get lucid, and I begin to think to myself - something isn't right because I live in Amsterdam now, of course! i'm visiting Sydney, I need to call my parents and tell them to come say hello before I head back to my life, but I can't, I have to fly out soon and there's no time. And then the dreams fade out and disappear.

Am I homesick? Or am I just going mad from all the cold and lack of nature and clean beaches?


Viajera said...

Could be both. I'm of a mind, that evenn when we fall out of love with our homelands, the love of specific things never really die. Maybe a short trip back to AUS is due? Or maybe find a replacement beach somewhere on the continent to spend a few days, say in Italy, Portugal, south of France?

Invader_Stu said...

It sounds to me like you need a short trip as well.

I don't think you are going mad. At this point it makes seance that you are starting to dream it more and more because you are thinking about the fact that you are dreaming it more and more. It only strengthen it the more you think about it.

Anita said...

Imagine yourself in the Dutch cold weather ten years from now. I lived up to 30 years old in a tropical weather. You will never forget how it is like.

Angela said...

Viajera: maybe a visit is due! Actually I was looking at ticket prices earlier today and was wondering if I could get my parents to sponsor it... ;)

Stu: I think that's true, maybe now that summer is coming it will sort itself out naturally :)

Anita: right now I think it's normal that I feel this way, to be homesick at this period of time is common, I do love it here but if it did become a major problem for me then I simply wouldn't stay here any longer, I am all about taking action when it comes to making my life a happy one :)

Anonymous said...

No more updates? March 28?!